I was really struggling with not feeling satisfied and wanting anything other than mean, vegetables, and nuts. I normally don't eat much peanut butter as I know I have a slight food allergy to it, but that had creeped into my routine as well. After fighting the sensation for hours I thought I'd try and make something happen. I figured the peanut butter in the pantry had some sort of sugar in it, but when I looked at the ingredients it was just peanuts, salt and oil. Nice.
I took a spoonful and it was pretty bland but helped a little, so I thought I'd get Ratatouille on it and make something delicious. I thought the more fat the better, so I added some coconut oil. Then I remembered how the little granules of salt in Justin's Peanut Butter cups make all the difference, so I added some sea salt. Then I remembered how I used to only need cinnamon to sweeten my oatmeal so I put a bunch of that. The last ingredient would be my new favorite oatmeal additive - sesame seeds. It was about 2 tablespoons of a not so pleasant looking mixture, and it tasted as bad as it sounds if not a little worst. I ended up eating it the rest of the evening anyways and it got me through what ended up being the toughest night of this process.
Sunday November 9th - Set-Backs and Breakthroughs
Sunday was a day of set-backs and breakthroughs. I had my first championship experience in all my years involved with competitive football, and I got to experience it coaching my son's team. The outcome wasn't what we would have wanted, yet we were all able to learn so much from all of this seasons experiences culminating in this final game, that all in all it was a great success through to the end.
I was excited to be coaching my son and to be a part of his mental, physical and emotional preparation, starting with his pre-game meal that day. Deeq wanted eggs, bacon, sausage and pancakes so I volunteered to make it thinking I'd eat the sausage and bacon (which I hadn't been eating lately, preferring a more vegan + eggs diet) which would make watching them eat pancakes more feasible. I got everything prepared and was about to cook the bacon when I realized "there's probably sugar in the bacon." I reluctantly looked at the packaging and saw "cane syrup" as one of the ingredients, and then had to look at the sausage as well, which also had a similar sweetener.
It was at this point that I decided I was too far in mentally and emotionally to back out, and I would take the little break in integrity to my commitment, eat the meat and eggs, and make a more informed decisions the rest of this journey. It was delicious with a little guilt/disappointment mixed in.
The great thing was the rest of the day I didn't have those same cravings I had been having, especially in the evenings. I had added Blue Diamond Smokehouse Almonds to my diet to help with those craving's and my reliance on them was noticeablly diminished and instead of having to go to bed with food in my belly, I was able to manage without eating right before bed.
On Track
Today I felt like I had kicked sugars a$$ and am now on top of my diet. I had some nuts this morning while I cracked some to add to my last batch of this seasons home grown basil pesto. Then had a smoothie of almond milk, spinach, ginger and coconut oil around 11am. I didn't need to eat again until 4pm when I had an egg lettuce wrap with avocado, delish!!!
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